Aesir, Asatru, Current events, Heathen, Heathentry

Blighted Blossom

Sing sweet Idunn
Sing through the sobs
Sweetly she stretched in sunlight
Joyous dance in the breeze
Beneath her branches
Gathered the lost to her shelter

Come the storm and shattering
Broken and bereft
Yet green grew at the breaking
Sun loving she sought
Rise again rise again loving
Sweetly to the sunlight
Her blossoms brightly blooming

Through struggle and storm risen
Strong and supple
Bright limbed and heavy blossom
Deep rooted and loving
Dreaming of the fruit
She will bring forth

Sing sweet Idunn
Sing through the sobs
For the blight has touched the blossom
Fought so long to reach
The full sun of summer
Now ash sears and blights
Where blossom hung in promise

Bitter dew is gathered
Tears stain the swaying leaf
Petals fall in silence
Bright dreams litter the floor
Bare branch shall never hold
Rich fruit in loving boughs

Sing sweet Idunn
For her shall never know your richness
Grown strong in the broken places
Danced joyous in each post storm dawn
To be blighted in her full blossom
All her victories naught but jest
Blossoms and dreams
By blight made foul and rot

—–Some news just hurts. There is no wisdom that grants it perspective, for each new layer of knowledge deepens your awareness of the wound suffered, and your helplessness to do anything but witness the blood fall.

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Old men and the Abyss

I will take all your strength
The skill from your hands
The lore from your mind
The fire from your blood
I will leave you nothing
I am the ruin of all you have become
I will unmake you
Before the end

Thus spake the abyss
Ever hating
Ever hungry
Ever closer

Once I was invincible
Or perhaps I was a fool
Skills and arts were mine
Mastery was earned and proven
Before the first shattering
Or was it the second?

Thus met the abyss
Ever hating
Ever hungry
Ever closer

At first I rose defiant
Carved power from my blood
Wrote saga’s in my pain
Took up those arts I mastered
Took up the battle unflinching
Less in power
Less in skill
Haunted by what I was

Then whispered the abyss
Ever hating
Ever hungry
Ever closer

Every dawn my fangs taste you
Every dusk a step closer
The strength of your limbs bleeds away
Your skills fade and falter
Half the man of yesterday
Twice what tomorrow will leave

Then laughed the abyss
Ever hating
Ever hungry
Ever closer

Yet in the cold light of dawn I nodded
Naught but tatters for banners
Naught but ashes for dreams
Yet the wreckage of me remains
And from that wreckage
A truth

The strength I had is fading
The skill I won goes with it
Yet on the day of my ending
Cold the dawn
Bloody the dusk
You will find me striding forward
Catch me only dying
And kiss
My cold dead ass

–For it is given to Heathens to know that they will die. We do not seek death, nor do we bestir ourselves much to avoid it should it rise in our path. Our gods call upon us to live fully, to live truly, and to make of our lives such a thing that that which age, infirmity, and death can claim is so small compared to the life that we have wrought we will not even notice its loss.

I am not what I was, and the abyss draws closer with every breath. Yet I have those I love, and duty yet to do. If the abyss wants me, it can kiss my hairy heathen ass; I have much yet to do.

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Truth of Fools

King have I been, seer have I been
A healer, a poet and a sage
Yet in the truth is thus
I will meet my end with a grin
In blood and in the rage

There is a race of kings you see
But that blood I do not claim
There is a race of thralls
And safety well they love
Yet I am of the other race
Of Carls was I born

We who are called to the doing
Some to the crafting
Some to the killing
All born to the challenge
Pride and power
Blood of the Carl
Truth of the fool

I am not what I was
Yet what I am is Carl
A thousand gravestones in my eyes
And I the one who remains
Who bet my life a thousand times
On skill, on luck, on pride
Rose from the battle
Rose from the grave
With a little more pain
Just a little less sane
Blood of the Carl
Soul of the wolf

Throw myself in the struggle
Bet my life on the razors edge
Bet my pride against blood
And live to walk away
Walk from my doom
Walk from my end
Until laughing I turn back
For one last roll of the dice

I will have no kings howe
Nor a thrall’s safe sick bed
I will go to my end clad in power
The blood from my wounds
Carl red

Seer I have been
Of the hanged one’s truth learned
We are all of us corpses
Awaiting the day of our wyrd
Let it find me laughing
All my strength in the fray
Take me in my fury
Kill me in my pride
Scatter my ashes and forget my name
For a Carl’s true place
Is in the doing

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Tentacles and Terror

You get tired when sleep is denied you. You get so that the screams of everyone who can’t deal with what they are going through stops being background noise and starts feeling like an ocean.

I come from a people that loved oceans, to seek the places that are, or were, or may be. To go where the map has not been made, to the places others failed to return from.

Along the seas of rage and fear I sailed in a mind whose defenses I did not bother to raise, for my soul was my sail, and as the waves broke green upon the prow and the mast of my sanity groaned and the keel of my identity snarled, and the dark corded lines of my training sang songs of overstrain and danger.

Far beyond the shores of sanity, at the edge of the abyss where the sea drops away to places that are not always there, but not always gone either something stirs.Before the ages of man, before the steps of the dinosaur, when the first trilobite formed an eye to behold the horror that was already ancient, they sang their songs of madness in the deeps, to drive the first creatures onto land to escape.

To this place my ship flew swift over darker and darker waves, until an island raised up from the sea like the nightmare mockery of Atlantis sinking.

He who ruled there rose up in infinite dark hunger, and stirred his tentacles into a mind shattered into a thousand splinters, and tired beyond tired.Doom he promised and madness, soul destroying knowledge that would blast my reason beyond salvage and warp my flesh beyond human.

“Yes” I snarled, reaching for the howling maelstrom with a hunger that would shame Fenris Wolf.

I looked into the abyss of madness and it looked back into me.Dark tentacles drove into me, seeking to ravage and destroy those bright memories that made me human, but dark roots and blood stains covered them.

The whispers of his words fell before the laughter of the hanged one, the howling of the frenzied one, the thunder that was the shattering of sky, of shield, of souls for the strife bringer.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” A voice like a chorus of a thousand lost souls screaming shook my bones, and blasted the surface of the sea into mist two fathoms high.

I laughed and pulled at the maelstrom, clawing at it with my hands and devouring it like a starving wolf on his still twitching kill.Dark tentacles sliced into me, shattering, slicing, punishing, seeking now to kill not to bind, and from the shattering darkness bled to cloak an absence that was a figure made in negative.Power lashed out and was consumed.

Ancient and unclean power rent my soul with claws of inhuman will and undying hatred.I died screaming, laughing, in ecstasy, in revelry, screaming, silent, straining, sighing, each blow shattering me like a fist in the water’s reflection of a face.Like the water, I reformed.

The laughter of ravens, the sobbing of the broken, the howling of the lost, the chanting of the wise, and the cold eternal hunger for all that was not known bled to fill every wound that cut me.

Ancient beyond ancient stared at the thief of knowledge, the rider of Hel’s road, and knew that each and every death he gave whispered secrets his secrets to the one eyed upstart.

“Begone fool. I would have used you better, and killed you cleaner than this” The Great One said, then sank again.

Great winds caught the sails of my soul, and the churning of the island sinking back into the depths below the depths whipped the sea into a frenzy my serpent howled and writhed to cross, the great keel that was my identity was carved of Yggdrasil, and he who rode it into madness was its master, as he was mine.

The sail that was my soul was in tatters, the mast that was my sanity shattered full length; yet nine bands of gold girt it, the rings of all riches, and what was stolen filled my holds for the god of cargoes, the first and best of all thieves to know.

What was lost, I cannot say. What was gained, I do not ask. There is no rest, no comfort, no peace, no ending, but there are places the map does not run, secrets the wise do not know, and uses still for madmen and fools.It is enough.

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Empaths: Service Message from Thor

I have been listening to a whole lot a people who are suffering right now because of a gift that they have, empathy. The gift of empathy is nominally a very important one for those who serve their community, but right at the moment, it comes with a huge drawback.

We have a perfect storm of negative emotions right now. Covid 19 pandemic brings with it risk of death, loved ones in danger, loved ones lost. It brings with it loss of social outlet, loss of community, loss of connection. It brings with it HUGE political division, and the threat of persecution no matter what course of action you take, someone is going to see this as an attack on their way of life, freedom, and even faith. We have the simmering racial tensions that have been accumulating since the election of a President who endorses open racism in a way not seen since the howling mobs of McCarthy era pre Civil Rights movement North America now boiling over with the Black Lives Matter protests proving the old acceptance will no longer be swallowed. We have economic hardship and uncertainty not seen since the great depression and a breakdown of our traditional alliance system that kept us safe since the end of WWII.

If you are an empath, the whispers you pick up from people, that let you know they are angry, or hurting, or scared are what give you the chance to see where help is needed. It is not a whisper right now, it is a scream. It has been a scream that has been growing in volume since Yule and will continue to grow for a long time before it even begins to back off.

We have wise goddesses, and clever gods, but sometimes the lessons we need most come not from the brightest gods, the most magical goddesses, but from the most mundane, the most straightforward and frequently fumbling god; Thor.

Thor is the working folk’s god, the common persons god. He makes mistakes, he learns, adapts and finishes the job. Right now I hear my empathic friends drowning, and I understand what they need, but it is Thor that gave us the tale and lesson.

Long ages ago when the gods travelled in Jottunheim, tests were given to them by Uttgard-Loki. Thor was given the test to drain a drinking horn. His task seemed simple for one as great at the table as Thor, for his appetite was matchless in the nine worlds. He took up that horn, as only one with great and matchless strength could, and he threw back his head and drank as no man or god before or since has been able to do.

He failed.

He had not picked up a giant horn of mead, but a horn that connected to the sea itself, and he was struggling to drink down all the worlds oceans. Not even Thor is vast enough to contain all the waters of the nine worlds and the endless fountain of the mother of waters. He failed. He put the horn down and backed away, admitting this task was beyond him.

Those who are empaths and have undertaken the task of serving their community grow in strength and endurance as they deal with the pain of others, taking it in to themselves, that in the sharing of the pain, they can share their own skills and teachings to process the pain and work through it.

This begins with tiny sips, and over time and when you have the physical and emotional resources to do the work, can proceed to glasses of pain, or even large horns of suffering.

Thor could not drink the sea, you cannot swallow the burning of the world and the screams of a people who are busy losing their mind under the strain of the perfect storm know as 2020.

Stop trying to be Thor, even he failed at this test. We are not Christians, we don’t admire martyrs, we shake our head at wasted lives, and unnecessary loss.

Wine tasters do not sit at the table and down barrel after barrel of wine, they take a mouthful, swirl it around to understand it, to learn it, and then they spit it out. They understand they CANNOT drink an ocean of wine and don’t try. They take in a taste, learn what they can, and get rid of it.

A whole long time ago we all learned grounding, centering, and shielding to process energy from ritual. These are the basic 101 skills any practitioner picks up. A lot of years ago when I was a young soldier I learned the coping mechanism of compartmentalizing serious incidents to be dealt with when I had the time and processing power to deal with it.

These are both self defense mechanisms, coping strategies to address Thor’s little drinking problem, the sea is vast, and we are not. We can drown in what we take in, we can be overwhelmed if we don’t take measures to limit what we take in, or at least balance it so we let go as much as we take in so that we do not drown in the ocean we are drinking.

What are you doing to LET GO what you are taking in?

I know many of you are playing “Suck it up buttercup” and internalizing your communities screaming so you don’t spill it out on others and hurt them. That is Thor swallowing as fast as he could, he was a god, and FAILED. You are not a god, you are drowning right now, and need to stop.

Some of you are working really hard on your shielding to block it out, and that is a good coping strategy.

The problem is this, you ARE an empath, you can’t help but taste the wine, to understand the source of the pain that spawned the scream, no matter how much you know you have to block it out. We who have the gift took it up to serve, not to be safe.

Being safe is a learned behaviour, 2020 is a bitch of a teaching moment.

You are picking up a whole bunch of heavy right now. Lets do something with it.

First, taste it, or listen to it, however you process it, but do not swallow it. You will drown, you will lose yourself and save no one. Take in enough to learn the pain of others, to share their struggle, and to see what you can do with it in terms of processing. Learn, don’t drown.

Spit it out, let it go. If its pouring into you, let it flow through you and out again. This is the time to practice your centering. Look inside yourself and find all the bits that are you, claim them. Find the bits that are not you, and gently let them go. Some of the pain and fear will be yours, those you can keep and deal with, the rest its not yours, so let it go. Center in yourself, be the rock that stands in the middle of the river, don’t let yourself get carried away by it and smashed at the next cataract.

Now all the pain, fear, rage, despair; the thousand colours of nasty that are actually yours have to be dealt with.

We have already gone over the fact that we are all cut off from most of our social outlets, most of our support structure, so in a lot of ways you are dealing with the biggest load of your life, with the lowest supports you have ever had.

That’s OK, really it is.

Letting the emotions go, the pain, all that stuff that you have finally pushed outside yourself has left you with a whole lot of your own pain, fear, rage, despair, hopelessness, and of course exhaustion.

So, what are you going to do with it.

Rage is useful, you can feed hopelessness, despair, fear, self hatred, feelings of inadequacy, into the mouth of the rage that comes from that storm of emotions of all the terrible, unfair, unjust, and just plain wrong that has been our year so far. Feed it to your rage and take it back as power.

Now take that power and do something with the rage.

Do you want to pour it into art, song, verse, political rants? Do you want to shape it into a magical working and wield it like the hammer of Thor to smite Covid-19, White Supremacy, corruption or any of the other serious wrong that needs smiting. Do you want to channel it into your fists and work it out pounding the heavy or speed bag, do you want to pound it into the pavement as you run, or build the winter wood pile looking at each wood billet as your least favourite politician and let the sweet fall of the axe bring a bit of relief.

You can’t just take it in, you need to actively work it out.

Thor could not drink down the sea, neither can you. I will not ever ask you to stop being empathic, to give up your gifts, for you are the ones cursed or blessed with the ability to heal the rifts in the community, the wounds in our souls. Don’t drown. Thor put the horn down when he could drink no more and stepped back.

Be smart as Thor, and put it down before your drown. Step back and survive for the next challenge.

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Dance Macabre

No rest for the weary
No sleep for the lost
Just the chains of fatigue
The madness
And the dance

Can’t shut out the ringing
Can’t block the jags of pain
Can’t muster the strength to care
Just the whisper
Of the dancer

Too tired to block the visions
The abyss roars its welcome
Scatters me in its storm
Lost in the dance
The madness and the dance

He is there in the darkness
He is there is the lightning
Wild white hair streaming
Wolf skins flying
Wolf howl sounding
Mad wild laughter
And the dance

She is there in the shadows
Cat skin gloves
Gold bright on her throat
Blood spilled bright on her breast
Wild laughter in her eyes
And the dance

I will give myself to the madness
I will give myself to the storm
Should I not rise again
Then I gave my soul to the dance

Soaked in sweat and snarling
My flesh half remembered prison
I come back confused
Restored, rearmed
If not rested

No promise of healing
No promise of life
Just the storm, the frenzy
And the dance

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This aye nicht





This aye nicht, this aye nicht
Every nicht and alle
Fire, steel and hanged man’s noose
Will Woden take thy soul

When thou from hence away art past
Every nicht and alle
When riven shield and blood stained mail
Will Woden take thy soul

If ever thou the deep sea go
Every nicht and alle
When green the wave o’er the bow
Will Ran receive thy soul

If ever thou cast thy nets spun wide
Every nicht and alle
When cast in turn thy mistress may
Will Ran receive thy soul

If ever thou danced by fire’s bold light
Every nicht and alle
Wild magic made by darkened moon
Will Freya take thy soul

If work by storm your spells to cast
Every nicht and alle
When ride the hunt on Walpurgsnacht
Will Freya take thy soul

If by field and farm you make your craft
Every nicht and alle
None from your hall turned away wanting
Will Hel receive thy soul

If weal not wound be your making
Every nicht and alle
The wild hunt by will pass you
And Hel receive thy soul

This aye nicht, this aye nicht
Every nicht and alle
The wild hunt rides the darkness
The hounds bay for your soul

This aye nicht, this aye nicht
Every nicht and alle
By word and deed your weaving
And who shall have thy soul?
 
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Scarlet and Sable 3: Bedside Manner

Scarlet and Sable

The prince returned, alarm stirring as for the first time in centuries he doubted his own immortal prowess. For a week he had sported with Scarlet, and yet she had not quickened with the child that would free him of obligation until its birth.

His own arts had read the richness and fertility of her flesh, and his arts had stilled within her those chemicals of mortality that sought to rob humanity of its only superior gift, the fertility denied the fair folk, yet she did not quicken.

Scarlet waited demurely in her bower, and the very demure patience alerted him of the trap. His senses swept, yet found no threat, only her room mate awaiting in the next room, a strange and compelling excitement tinged the air, yet no threat.

“What trickery is this?” The prince asked, his elven tones too pure for humanity, yet for all his experience, all his magical talent and immortal will, he was unable to see the chains that bound him.

“How is it you are not with child, how is it the bargain still binds me?”

Scarlet pushed some buttons on her mortal communications amulet, or “phone” as mortals would describe it, before turning and smiling like a cat with a cornered baby bird.

“Oh my lord, that would be the surgical steel IUD. Guaranteed proof against fairy magic and unplanned pregnancy both; although I absolutely adored every instant of you trying” She batted her eyelashes with uncomplicated lust, even as her complicated web began to unfold.

“What is this, we are bound you and I for a moon to produce a child that will be mine, or the magic will claim us both!” The prince felt anger rising, as the terms of fairy bargains were hard and cold as the killing iron, growing nearer to biting them both with every un-quickened dawn.

The door opened, and Sable, the dark haired room mate wafted in, a vision of pale loveliness in black veiled mourning, a sorrow deep and bitter as absinthe hung about her like the echoes of loves dying scream. The prince looked from her to Scarlet and back as Scarlet spoke.

“My dearest friend, sister of my heart, Sable lost her fairy prince unknowing when her tongue piercing caused an unfortunate end of their love in fiery anguish”

The elven prince drew himself up in hauteur, for the death of another lord meant less than nothing to him. He had ended more of his own kind than could be named in a day of chanting.

“What has this to do with me, and our bargain?” He hissed, magic crackling about him as his anger rose.

Scarlet took the black veil that guarded Sables face, and lifted it to show the deep sorrowful eyes. With one lace gloved hand she brushed the tears from Sables pale cheeks and spoke softly.

“There is no surer way to get over one Elven lord, than to get under another one” Scarlet said taking the tear covered lace glove, and trailing it suggestively over the princes codpiece.

Opening a silk kerchief in ornate Romany adornment, Scarlet showed a gleaming surgical steel IUD, and tongue stud. As the fairy prince stood in stunned silence, Scarlet continued.

“Have you heard the mortal phrase ‘Double or Nothing’ my lord”

The fairy prince felt laughter burst within him, the audacity, the sheer mortal audacity of trapping him for the sole purpose of easing her beloved friends grief through love-play was so Byzantine it could have come from a Queen of Fairy, not a pair of goth girls from Trenton.

Two sets of arms pushed him back to the bed, and he set out to finish what had become indeed the hardest bargain he had made with humanity.

Somewhere before dawn, as scarlet and sable tresses fell across his pale chest, he realized that this world yet held wonders, even for one as ageless as him.

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Scarlet and Sable 2: Hard bargains

Scarlet and Sable

Scarlet accepted the potted black rose from the silver clad elfin lord who offered it with a superior smile.

“Our bargain is complete and binding, tea from this flower will keep the sun from ever marring your skin, nor will any disease ever bite upon you. In return, you will furnish me your first born child within its first moon”

Scarlet began unbuttoning the long dark Victorian boots that clad her long pale legs.

“Not quite correct on the word order. You have one moon to furnish me the first born child, that you can have custody of. Be a dear and help me with the corset, it takes forever to get unlaced.”

One elegant eyebrow of the alfar lord raised as he observed the cat like ears mounted on the tiara like hair ornament woven into her scarlet tresses. She had removed her boots and was reclining upon the bed, one dark stocking clad foot trailing up his leather riding trews with impudent impropriety.

“Surely you don’t mean me?” He asked with the lofty disdain of an immortal lord for a girl child of no more than a score and handful of seasons.

Reclining on one arm, displaying quite a lot of decolletage, Scarlet smiled wickedly.

“My roommate Sable is as fair a maid as I, surely you don’t expect her to get me with child? After all my lord, by your own will and words, our bargain is complete and binding.”

An almost catlike quality of malice and uncomplicated glee flashed in her eyes, and a smile tugged at his pale lips.

Trickery, lust, pride and whimsy were woven into the nature of fairy, and for an elven lord, lust and trickery together were enough to bring warmth to the blood of a pale prince who had seen nations rise and fall so often to have forgotten anything beyond momentary distraction.

Looking again at the mortal girl, this black clad scarlet tressed mortal girl, he felt challenged for the first time in centuries. Where challenge was met with subtle magic or flashing blade, it was an older and purer form of lance work she was demanding.

Smile lazily spreading across his face as blood across a fresh cut throat, he felt more than challenge rise within him. Fingers moving with inhuman grace and with more than mortal hunger, he worked first her laces, and then the oldest magic of them all.

Hard bargains lay ahead it seemed.

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Scarlet: I am desolate

Sable : Yes, its a good look

Scarlet No, my heart is ash, dealcoholized absinthe, and a day without night.

Sable: No! What happened?

Scarlet: My dark prince turned out to be a faery.

Sable: Unkind much? There is no room for homophobia in the dark. You can still be soul mates, does not the tragedy enhance the doomed perfection of your love?

Scarlet Not fairy, Faery. Fey, full on elflord. I got my tongue pierced to better express our dark love, and when the steel stud touched him, his junk burst into flame and he died.

Sable Doomed love, turned to ash in your mouth

Scarlet Literally. I am desolate; also, yuck.

Sable Mint?

Scarlet Please.
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Scarlet and Sable: Beginning and Ending

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